Linwood-8 & The Night Baby
Episode 03:06:2023 - Prompt: Comfort
Where comfort took me…
In high school, I knew the alarm would go off at 7:00. I would fret over being awake at 3:57, 3:58, 3:59. How would I make it through seven hours of school if I didn’t catch a few winks? Answer: barely, sometimes not at all.
I tried melatonin, weed, and sleeping pills, but staying awake through medication designed for sleep was worse than not sleeping. The next day I’d be “mela-stonin” instead of rested. Groggy or just plain wiped out.
Later, I developed a theory.
As a “night baby”, born after 11pm, all of my initial sensations outside of the womb came rushing in at midnight. Thus, it’s completely natural for my body to be alert at night. This means I’m suited to a lifestyle based on nocturnal activity.
Since I figured it out, I’ve been thriving in my element.
Still, nothing gives me greater comfort than a real knock-out sleep. However, I’ll pay for it for days to come. It’s as if I’m allotted a limited number of hours per week and shouldn’t use them all at once.
What’s my secret to feeling restored after a short night of sleep?
I visit 1015 E. Slocum Street.
My grandmother, Dora, lived to 101 years old.
She resided in the same row house until she decided to stop walking at 95.
She never drove a car. Never smoked. Didn’t drink.
When my grandfather, Michael - my namesake - died at sixty, Dora took his position as a fiduciary for the City of Philadelphia and worked into her eighties.
When someone lives in the same house throughout generations - Dora’s mother, husband, children, grandchildren, and even some great-grandchildren - the environment holds onto its impressions.
Mom-mom Dora never threw things away.
Because the house never changed, I’m able to visualize its rooms, like a preserved installation in a historic residence.
In my imagination…
I can reach for the screen door with the ornate “C” for Cutler and smell decades of homemade chicken soup. (That warm, salty smell of Jewish food sometimes hits me in our friends apartment building on Grand Street in Lower Manhattan.)
I could go through the living room to the kitchen or head up the worn carpeted stairs to the back room, my father’s. The only one with an air conditioner and the TV/Radio/Phonograph unit, the first in the neighborhood.
I could pop my head into the middle room, my grandparents, that hadn’t been slept in for years. The dark wood furniture covered with Wanamaker’s bags inside Lord & Taylor’s bags.
Nothing of value, just bags.
My mom-mom Dora’s room had two single beds. Her mother, Bubby Sara, slept in one. My aunt in the other. Later, only Dora. The tissue paper in bags-in-bags continued, but there was sometimes a cashmere sweater tucked inside. Her closet of “vintage” business suits in dry cleaning bags.
When sleep is far away, I walk through this house on Slocum Street.
Awash in memories of Dora’s story about the wolf that put flour on its legs to trick the little babies before he ate them. Or her Here We Go Round The Mulberry Bush dance routine, one hand on her hip and the other on her head.
Her phone number was LI8-8243. Linwood-8.
Sometimes I repeat the number in my head, like a mantra, to make sure my memory still works, and I can conjure the taste of salt & butter spread on matzoh.
And then, at some point, I find myself asleep.
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I have a confession. In my forties, after my husband moved out and we divorced, I found comfort in romance novels. Best sellers, please, give me some credit. Nora Roberts not Harlequin. Why were romance novels so comforting? Well yes, there was the second-hand sex. But more, I identified with the heroines. I'm the victim, he's the villain; I'm innocent, he certainly is not; I'm strikingly attractive yet helpless, and there's a strapping fellow just waiting to save me from this terrible mess called life. Nell Fenwick tied to the railroad track by Snidely Whiplash with Dudley Do-Right of the Royal Canadian Mounted Police coming to the rescue. You get the picture. Eventually, I did, too. Me, an innocent victim, who was I kidding? I took a long, uncomfortable look at myself in the mirror and never read another romance novel. The comfort was gone.
In one hour, I will be sweating bullets. We will have left our home in the olive fields, making the familiar journey to the gym in Granada. A soaked workout shirt doesn’t take me long training with Pablo. He’ll get us warmed up and then proceed to burn us down with high-quality, efficient exercises. A myriad of healthy torture to maintain our aging bodies as they look forward to the times ahead. To trick the mind to absorb the suffering to achieve the growth. What’s better than feeling strong, limber, energetic? Giving what you’ve got to give. Is there anything more comforting? Yes, there is. When the sweating hour is up, we make our way to the gym’s spa where we will spend another hour in the bubbling jets of the hot tub, the dry heat of the sauna, the hydrating mists of the steam room.
I think I will keep this up.