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Amelia's avatar

I dream about the house all the time, my home of 18 years. I find myself floating through each room- I remember every corner of it. There were so many moments that marked it as a family home. But it was my dad who made it memorable. He took great pride in being able to care for us, give us a lovely home, and safety and security during the war years and we were able to summer at the seashore. We always celebrated Christmas with a huge tree that touched the ceiling, and the greatest Lionel train set he had collected running around and through the gifts placed around the tree.

I remember our first console in 1947 with a black and white TV, radio, and phonograph. Every Sunday he would play classical recordings which were only grooved on one side. There was a Steinway piano in the living room and as soon as he came home he would begin playing not only his own songs but those of Irving Berlin, George Gershwin, and Cole Porter, and I would be lulled to sleep. To this day I can break into songs which fit any emotional occasion.

When I left home so blithely, I did not fully understand what I was giving up in exchange for my “freedom”. The many moves I made over the course of my life are head spinning to consider, however finally I have found that special setting in which to build a home for me and my family and feel rooted and secure as in the past.

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Karen Egee's avatar

Clearly you CAN go home again. Having lived my adult life outside of Boston, now at 64, my husband and I are back living in Maine, four miles from the home where I grew up, where my father still lives. I ride my bike up our road and then take a right onto Mere Point, the road to my father’s house, my childhood home. I ride past the now run down house that used to be pink and well manicured, where the other Karen, Karen P., with pink glasses I was jealous of, would board the schoolbus. I ride past the farmhouse with the hidden passages, where the twins lived, where the three of us played away many happy afternoons. I have double vision on this road, childhood, middle age, then and now, flickering, toggling.

Sometimes, driving home from food shopping in town, lost in thought, I keep driving down Mere Point towards my father’s, forgeting to turn on to our road. When I notice I turn around, making the left onto Pleasant Hill, arriving at our peaceful home in the woods, familiar smells from childhood, of marsh and mudflats wafting in, David, out front tending the vegetables or putting gas in the tractor will come help carry groceries, Coby will trot out to greet me

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